since i don't have you...

You know what I'd desperately want to do right now? Make a CLONE of you, including everything I love, like, adore, desire(!), as well as everything I despise about YOU -- e.g. your beautiful eyes that make my heart melt everytime you see through me -- and place him right beside me so that I would never have to miss YOU and your toxic presence ever again.

I'm so f**king caught between trying so hard to forget you and being contentedly happy with just dwelling on our "memories." Pictures of you (when we were still an "US") on my mind are just so f**king perfect that I dare not try to miss each moment even if it means being insanely fixated on a mere MEMORY... A fantasy, a daydream, a crappy suntok-sa-buwan-na-pangarap. SHET!!

If somebody could just ever replace you and everything you do to me! Then I'd never have to be ranting about these again... But deep inside, I know. There could never be anyone as PATIENT, as KIND, as INTELLIGENT, as COOL, as ARROGANT, as PLAYFUL, as SEXY, and as HANDSOME (err.. haha!) as the only person that I've ever truly loved. That is, YOU. How, oh how, did we ever end up like this? Everything sucks, "since I don't have you." Everything f**king sucks...


"Now I know that I did something wrong 'cause I MISS YOU..." T_T