i wish you were here...

I wish for a time when we could talk as if not a single thing from our past had ever happened.
I wish there was a way for me to know you without risking a broken heart.
I wish you had never been good to me and had never thought good of me.
I wish we had never become friends and never concurred to the same idiotic crap we'd ever obsessed on.
I wish there was a way for us to forget that we had once fallen in love with our idiotic selves.
I wish love had never come in the way of our friendship.
I wish we had stayed friends. I wish we had only been friends.
I wish I never liked you. And loved you. And hurt you.
I wish there was some way to forget everything you are and everything you'd done.

I wish I never met you.
That way I would never miss you as badly as I do now.

I WISH YOU WERE HERE... T_T

"the scientist"

I think it's best that I stop this while I still can. After all, it's not like there's the existence of something mutual other than friendship here.

I know that you love me. And you don't want me to be hurt, in as much as I don't want you to be, either. I also know that you still care. You even care enough to still be my friend and to still give a shit about me when I was slowly falling apart and to give your doses of "What doesn't kill you makes you stronger" advices p.r.n. Then again, apparently still not enough to make you change your stupid plans for me, more so change your friggin drinking and smoking habits for me even for just a day.

I guess I've also grown tired of waiting... Of endlessly hypothesizing. Of planning for stupid schemes that never had once come to fruition. Of over-analyzing those goddamn feelings of yours based on the littlest things that you tell me.

"It's such a shame for us to part..." without me knowing what lies there in your idiotic HEART!
I still love you though... Only that, I think it's finally time for me to let go. =)


THANKS FOR THE MEMORIES... =)